I fall in and out of love with you again and again

With each passing day,

When I miss you,

When I need you,

When you look at me,

And ask me to close my eyes,

And whisper in my ears,

Softness of your voice 

Touches my soul, and,

I fall in love with you,

And when I go away

You don't care how I miss you,

How I suffer from the lows in my life,

You remain indifferent to my sufferings,

You don't call my name, 

You leave my dreams alone,

And I miss you again and again,

I fall out of love with you,

And when I see you,

The vulnerable side of yours,

That you hide from everyone,

In the middle of the night,

When you call my name, 

Curled up against me,

You tell me,

Not to go again,

How your heart can not afford to miss me again,

You say that so seldom,

You hide what so often,

And I fall in love with you again,

How we repeat this,

Every time, 

We are together or apart,

How we cheat and lie,

How we proudly say to each other,

You don't matter,

I can take care of myself,

With or without you,

I fall in and out of love with you, 

Again and again

An unfinished dream

Yet again,

I find myself,

In the middles of an unfinished dream,

Where, I am chasing the future,

While the present is slipping away from my hands,

Yet again,

I find myself,

Looking for thyself, from my own eyes,

Missing the surroundings completely,

Passion, desire, ambition are calling me,

While love and virtue calms me down,

In the conflict of now and then,

I am splitting into known and the unknown,

Yet again,

I am struggling 

with myself,

I am confining myself to the limitations of my thoughts,

While my desire is disappearing into the unknown,

Yet again,

I am lost,

To be found, and lost again,

While, I remain loyal to my desire,

I pursue happiness of a new kind,

Creating a bridge between now and then,

I am asked to chose between here and there, 

Yet again,

Looking into the future,

The old smiles at the new,

Calling me an obsessive compulsive,

Flirting with the new,

I kindle my emotions for a mute passion, with a blind faith,

Yet again,

With a closed mind,

I wake up,

From my unfinished dream,

With a desire to sleep and dream again,

Of a different time, 

Of a different place,

With happiness around me,

Where compassion surrounds me,

Yet again,

I dream again!

Leading into a crash

After such a great flight

Smoth sailing across 

The corridors of fame and power 

I am leading into a crash

To be unknown again

Shedding the burden to be a success

Forfeiting the charms of recognition

Admirations of the knowns 

For a life in solitude 

I am crashing into myself again!

Melting in time

O! Shadow, O! Shadow,

Leave me alone,

I wish to be left alone,

I know, the choices I have,

Are; either to embrace,

The sun,

Look at it,

With my eyes wide open,

Or,

Confine myself,

In the depths of darkness,

With eyes wide shut,

O! Shadow, O! Shadow,

Come to me,

I need you back in my life,

I am on my way to be lost again,

My conscience calls your name,

Come and embrace me again,

Kiss me, hug me and hold me tight,

I am melting in time,

With all my might and ego,

I am losing myself to nothingness,

Becoming a memory, 

Like an old photograph hidden in the album,

Like a forgotten love song,

Like a poem to be unwritten,

Like a name to be removed,

Faded into memories, slowly and gradually,

O! Shadow, O! Shadow,

Don't leave me alone,

I am scared of being alone!

Let's be strangers again!

I wish, we could start over again,

Let's be strangers again

From us, we can be you and I, again

Let me introduce myself to you, 

Once, I was, yours

Someone not known to you now,

I am the stranger you will know, love and hate again

Do you see yourself changing in my eyes,

And

Becoming a estranger once again,

Are you the same, who would care and be indifferent again?

Or will you become a stranger again?

Are you my destiny or am I your illusion,

You still remain in my thoughts,

While I am in the heart of your dreams,

We both walk across the life,

Side by side,

We both live the same dream,

In separate times and in separate minds,

Unable to recognize each other,

In the desperation of solace from each other ,

I wish, we could start over again,

Let's forget, 

What we know,

Let's be strangers again...

Curse of Knowing

Laughing sounds of silence,
With smiling faces of emptiness,
Chasing me around all the time,
Whispering your name,
Again and again,
and
Again,
Asking me about you,
Haunting me with loneliness,
Every day and each night,
How can I not tell them?
What they don't know,
You are mine,
Only mine....

Crisis of Self

Am I here?

Who is calling my name?

Am I the one looking for myself?

Isn't it you looking outside the mirror again?

Who are you? 

Or is it me again?

Are we both pretending to be us again?