Sinking Heart

Unaware of tomorrow,

Uncertain about today,

Indifferent to yesterday,

I have a desire to disappear into the unknown,

Nothing inspires me,

While silence surrounds me,

With slow dominating sounds of sanity in my mind,

I listen to the gradual diminishing whispers of conversations,

With myself,

As I try to keep afloat,

My sinking heart offers me a refuge,

Unable to distinguish between realities,

I walk among the rest,

With my head down and a smile on my face.

Impostor

When the shadows start to haunt, 

And whispers become unbearable,

I hear the Impostor inside me,

Commanding me to listen, talk, cheat and lie to myself,

Deceiving from truth and reality,

Guilt, shame and mistrust become my virtue,

I convince myself, 

I am not helpless!

The future is there,

As a hope for tomorrow,

As I run away from darkness towards light,

I struggle to wake up from my reality,

Defying every god I have believed in,

Every moment I have cherished,

Shouting at myself in the loneliness around me,

Silence becomes, a luxury beyond me,
With a glow in my eyes and a smile on my face,

I wait for this moment to pass by,

Unnoticed and undetected.