Song of Sorrows

One by one,

Shedding tears in despair,

My smile getting stiff,

With no expressions of now and then,

I become rigged to what I see and hear,

Looking for someone to be blamed,

In and outside of my thoughts,

I close my eyes,

Shutting out my inspirations, 

Humming a song of sorrows,

Hanging on to hope, 

I wishper a story of tomorrow 

To myself, 

Reassuring a believe in,

What I can't see or hear,

A voice buried deep inside me,

Shouts at me,

Stop deceiving!

You are not leaving, 

You are not leaving, 

I open my eyes, 

Silencing the voices,

I see teardrops on the pillow,

I see raindrops on the window

Smiling on the similarity, 

Humming the song of sorrows,

I am hanging on.....

Screams!

Diving into my ego,

I found the skeleton of my dreams, 

Wrapped up in lust,

Hidden behind petty desires,

I find solace in desolation,

What is left behind,

Are just ashes of time,

Scattered across my smile,

What is ahead, 

Holds the future from my sins,

My heart screams for help,

In the silence of my thoughts,

I praise the one I love,

And ask,

Let me go!, let me go!

Confrontation

Sitting in front of my ego,

I am confronted with reality,

Everyday,

How simple it is, to see and smile?

The logic confronting the desire,

Crafting myself gradually,

Recreating in the image of my desire,

I hide behind the cloak of logic, 

Just to conceal my real motives,

Disguising myself with naked lies,

I stand tall with pride,

My ego yells at me,

I know it all, I know it all!

I smile,

Letting the desire to conspire,

It whispers quietly in my thoughts,

I want it all, I will have it all!

Shedding A Dry Tear

Look at my face,

My masquerade smile,

Listen to the echoes of my heart,

The sound of emptiness,

Shackle with my soul,

Look around and see,

The shallowness of my thoughts,

With some broken smiles,

A few unfulfilled desires and a few happy moments,

A graveyard of memories,

A garden of hopeless ambitions,

Stay here for a while,

You will see your shadow,

Emerging from an unfinished dream,

Come closer,

You might see,

The selfishness of my compassion,
Camouflaged in piety,

I am sitting alone,

Looking at you,

Shedding a dry tear.

Déjà VU

Moving in the fast lane,

I realized for a moment,

I was moving alone,

In a direction unknown,

To an undecided destination,

Moving away from now to then,

Passing by sorrows and happiness,

I saw a reflection of myself in the stillness of the journey,

Envious of my own self,

Jealous of my shadow,

I tried to ditch myself,

With a few thoughts of a desire,

In the lust to fulfil my ambitions,

I decided to leave behind,

Everything that is keeping me still and afloat,

Sinking in my desire,

I realized,

I am drowning alone.