Waiting for a Sign

WSitting at the edge of time,

I am waiting for a sign,

A small gesture of kindness by the gods,

May be touch of a gentle breeze,

Or,

Smile of a blooming flower,

Looking around,

I am waiting for a sign,

In the shining of the moonlight,

Away from the stars,

In the sounds of silenece,

I am,

Waiting for a sign,

With the passing of time,

Looking at my rhytiding face,

I look at each memory with a distant pleasure,

A combination of pain and joy,

Scars remind me of my success,

Tracks of my tears write the story of my loss,

With a broken smile and a blind faith,

I am still,

Waiting for a sign.

Sinking Heart

Unaware of tomorrow,

Uncertain about today,

Indifferent to yesterday,

I have a desire to disappear into the unknown,

Nothing inspires me,

While silence surrounds me,

With slow dominating sounds of sanity in my mind,

I listen to the gradual diminishing whispers of conversations,

With myself,

As I try to keep afloat,

My sinking heart offers me a refuge,

Unable to distinguish between realities,

I walk among the rest,

With my head down and a smile on my face.

Screams!

Diving into my ego,

I found the skeleton of my dreams, 

Wrapped up in lust,

Hidden behind petty desires,

I find solace in desolation,

What is left behind,

Are just ashes of time,

Scattered across my smile,

What is ahead, 

Holds the future from my sins,

My heart screams for help,

In the silence of my thoughts,

I praise the one I love,

And ask,

Let me go!, let me go!

Life?

Looking at the mirror,

I asked, what is life?

My reflection answered,

Of course me!

I was asked, what is life?

I remained silenced in confusion and delusion, 

The stillness around me echoed, what am I?

I smiled and looked at the mirror,

I saw myself saying, of course you!

Curse of Knowing

Laughing sounds of silence,
With smiling faces of emptiness,
Chasing me around all the time,
Whispering your name,
Again and again,
and
Again,
Asking me about you,
Haunting me with loneliness,
Every day and each night,
How can I not tell them?
What they don't know,
You are mine,
Only mine....