Happy Birthday

Looking into myself,

The old smiles,

At the young!

Sinking Heart

Unaware of tomorrow,

Uncertain about today,

Indifferent to yesterday,

I have a desire to disappear into the unknown,

Nothing inspires me,

While silence surrounds me,

With slow dominating sounds of sanity in my mind,

I listen to the gradual diminishing whispers of conversations,

With myself,

As I try to keep afloat,

My sinking heart offers me a refuge,

Unable to distinguish between realities,

I walk among the rest,

With my head down and a smile on my face.

Screams!

Diving into my ego,

I found the skeleton of my dreams, 

Wrapped up in lust,

Hidden behind petty desires,

I find solace in desolation,

What is left behind,

Are just ashes of time,

Scattered across my smile,

What is ahead, 

Holds the future from my sins,

My heart screams for help,

In the silence of my thoughts,

I praise the one I love,

And ask,

Let me go!, let me go!

Confrontation

Sitting in front of my ego,

I am confronted with reality,

Everyday,

How simple it is, to see and smile?

The logic confronting the desire,

Crafting myself gradually,

Recreating in the image of my desire,

I hide behind the cloak of logic, 

Just to conceal my real motives,

Disguising myself with naked lies,

I stand tall with pride,

My ego yells at me,

I know it all, I know it all!

I smile,

Letting the desire to conspire,

It whispers quietly in my thoughts,

I want it all, I will have it all!

Tears

Looking at your face,

In the dim light of the moon,
With darkness spreading across the room,
My heart missed a beat today,
Speaking to myself,
I realized,
When I see your smile disappearing in time,
I try to convince, cheat and lie to myself,
"I am yours",
But I know the truth, and I can't share it with you,
"I love your tears too!"

Visitor from the Past

He came to see me after such a long time,

The shadow from my past,

"How are you old friend?", he asked me,

"Have you abandoned me or have you forgotten me?",

"Where have you been?", he asked me,

"I have been looking at you from a distant past", he told me,

"I am not ready", I told him,

With a hallow smile and a reluctant hug I told him to go away....

Feeling Blue!

With the advent of the evening, when the sun starts to go down to sleep slowly,

I look at the sky and start missing a face,

The innocent smile of time, gradual laugh of the moon, reminds me of the emptiness of my being,

As the stars starts to appear gradually,
the horizon becomes playground for my thoughts,

writing your name,
so the universe can whisper it to Him,

Reminding me of the innocence of today for the guilt of tomorrow...