I saw....

Walking on the aisles of my thoughts,

I saw an oasis of sadness,

Collected over a short passage of time,

Delusions lying in emotions,

I saw ambition crumbling into tears,

What I knew in the past,

Was no more there,

I saw a struggling soul,

Trying to keep sanity and confusion together,

Making sense of all the desires,

While putting the shine on fate,

I saw a fading picture of body and mind,

Losing control,

Making it, the worst of time 

And the best of time,

Ghosts of the past and gods of the tomorrow,

Singing mute songs of sorrow,

Struggling to keep it together,

I saw words losing their meanings,

Conversing with thyself,

Confusion creeps into reasoning,

The struggle to make it right again,

The desire to own the world again,

The cry to be relevant again,

I saw life becoming lost again,

With reasons to smile,

In the suffocation of thoughts,

Limitations of time were reflected in each slipping moment,

I saw a crumbling spirit vanishing into time.

Solitude!

A brief thought in time appeared,

Whispering a few names,

I wonder how and why they emerge,

As I am not part of anyone's dream,

Nor in the fantasies either,

Desire is not my destiny,

My reality is my truth,

And I feel assured,

As I am not even the desire of my present

Hopelessness surrounds me,

Like a blind child's dream,

With no wings to fly,

I want to jump of the cliff,

Just to fall and fail,

So somebody can hold me

And they will all scream again,

"You are unlovable"

"You will not be loved"

Cursed by all of them 

I forget,

they cursed me, one at a time,

To remain in solitude,

Without love and with no craving for it either,

I run towards myself,

Holding myself from disintegrating,

Into similar pieces of me,

In the shades of,

The past, present and the future

Time Travel!

Confused and disgusted,

Noises in the front,

I sit deaf, dumb and blind,

Surrounded by,

People wearing masks of deceit,

Laughters by day, silence by night,

A show everyday,

A play each night,

Getting suffocated by the absence of emotions inside me,

The emptiness of the reality around me,

Why?

I ask, and my voice echoes from all sides,

Reminding me about,

Limitations of my thoughts, space and time,

Making me realise,

I am confined by my conscious,

Awakened by the coward inside me,

As time passes by in front of my eyes,

I become a witness to my theft,

Flying away in time, 

Leaving my place in a thought for the future.

Visitor from the Past

He came to see me after such a long time,

The shadow from my past,

"How are you old friend?", he asked me,

"Have you abandoned me or have you forgotten me?",

"Where have you been?", he asked me,

"I have been looking at you from a distant past", he told me,

"I am not ready", I told him,

With a hallow smile and a reluctant hug I told him to go away....