An unfinished dream

Yet again,

I find myself,

In the middles of an unfinished dream,

Where, I am chasing the future,

While the present is slipping away from my hands,

Yet again,

I find myself,

Looking for thyself, from my own eyes,

Missing the surroundings completely,

Passion, desire, ambition are calling me,

While love and virtue calms me down,

In the conflict of now and then,

I am splitting into known and the unknown,

Yet again,

I am struggling 

with myself,

I am confining myself to the limitations of my thoughts,

While my desire is disappearing into the unknown,

Yet again,

I am lost,

To be found, and lost again,

While, I remain loyal to my desire,

I pursue happiness of a new kind,

Creating a bridge between now and then,

I am asked to chose between here and there, 

Yet again,

Looking into the future,

The old smiles at the new,

Calling me an obsessive compulsive,

Flirting with the new,

I kindle my emotions for a mute passion, with a blind faith,

Yet again,

With a closed mind,

I wake up,

From my unfinished dream,

With a desire to sleep and dream again,

Of a different time, 

Of a different place,

With happiness around me,

Where compassion surrounds me,

Yet again,

I dream again!

Impostor

When the shadows start to haunt, 

And whispers become unbearable,

I hear the Impostor inside me,

Commanding me to listen, talk, cheat and lie to myself,

Deceiving from truth and reality,

Guilt, shame and mistrust become my virtue,

I convince myself, 

I am not helpless!

The future is there,

As a hope for tomorrow,

As I run away from darkness towards light,

I struggle to wake up from my reality,

Defying every god I have believed in,

Every moment I have cherished,

Shouting at myself in the loneliness around me,

Silence becomes, a luxury beyond me,
With a glow in my eyes and a smile on my face,

I wait for this moment to pass by,

Unnoticed and undetected.