An unfinished dream

Yet again,

I find myself,

In the middles of an unfinished dream,

Where, I am chasing the future,

While the present is slipping away from my hands,

Yet again,

I find myself,

Looking for thyself, from my own eyes,

Missing the surroundings completely,

Passion, desire, ambition are calling me,

While love and virtue calms me down,

In the conflict of now and then,

I am splitting into known and the unknown,

Yet again,

I am struggling 

with myself,

I am confining myself to the limitations of my thoughts,

While my desire is disappearing into the unknown,

Yet again,

I am lost,

To be found, and lost again,

While, I remain loyal to my desire,

I pursue happiness of a new kind,

Creating a bridge between now and then,

I am asked to chose between here and there, 

Yet again,

Looking into the future,

The old smiles at the new,

Calling me an obsessive compulsive,

Flirting with the new,

I kindle my emotions for a mute passion, with a blind faith,

Yet again,

With a closed mind,

I wake up,

From my unfinished dream,

With a desire to sleep and dream again,

Of a different time, 

Of a different place,

With happiness around me,

Where compassion surrounds me,

Yet again,

I dream again!

Leading into a crash

After such a great flight

Smoth sailing across 

The corridors of fame and power 

I am leading into a crash

To be unknown again

Shedding the burden to be a success

Forfeiting the charms of recognition

Admirations of the knowns 

For a life in solitude 

I am crashing into myself again!

Let's be strangers again!

I wish, we could start over again,

Let's be strangers again

From us, we can be you and I, again

Let me introduce myself to you, 

Once, I was, yours

Someone not known to you now,

I am the stranger you will know, love and hate again

Do you see yourself changing in my eyes,

And

Becoming a estranger once again,

Are you the same, who would care and be indifferent again?

Or will you become a stranger again?

Are you my destiny or am I your illusion,

You still remain in my thoughts,

While I am in the heart of your dreams,

We both walk across the life,

Side by side,

We both live the same dream,

In separate times and in separate minds,

Unable to recognize each other,

In the desperation of solace from each other ,

I wish, we could start over again,

Let's forget, 

What we know,

Let's be strangers again...

Solitude!

A brief thought in time appeared,

Whispering a few names,

I wonder how and why they emerge,

As I am not part of anyone's dream,

Nor in the fantasies either,

Desire is not my destiny,

My reality is my truth,

And I feel assured,

As I am not even the desire of my present

Hopelessness surrounds me,

Like a blind child's dream,

With no wings to fly,

I want to jump of the cliff,

Just to fall and fail,

So somebody can hold me

And they will all scream again,

"You are unlovable"

"You will not be loved"

Cursed by all of them 

I forget,

they cursed me, one at a time,

To remain in solitude,

Without love and with no craving for it either,

I run towards myself,

Holding myself from disintegrating,

Into similar pieces of me,

In the shades of,

The past, present and the future

A Mute Song of Happiness

In the suburbs of the heart,

Away from the graveyard of the past,

I walk through the memory lane,

Reaching to a place,

Where I can rest and gaze in the future,

Unfolding it in front of my eyes,

Moment to moment,

I become an audience to myself,

A spectator to my life,

Like an unfinished dream,

Crude and jarring,

Deep and calm,

Enigmatic and misunderstood,

Like a mute song of happiness.

Sinking Heart

Unaware of tomorrow,

Uncertain about today,

Indifferent to yesterday,

I have a desire to disappear into the unknown,

Nothing inspires me,

While silence surrounds me,

With slow dominating sounds of sanity in my mind,

I listen to the gradual diminishing whispers of conversations,

With myself,

As I try to keep afloat,

My sinking heart offers me a refuge,

Unable to distinguish between realities,

I walk among the rest,

With my head down and a smile on my face.

Time Travel!

Confused and disgusted,

Noises in the front,

I sit deaf, dumb and blind,

Surrounded by,

People wearing masks of deceit,

Laughters by day, silence by night,

A show everyday,

A play each night,

Getting suffocated by the absence of emotions inside me,

The emptiness of the reality around me,

Why?

I ask, and my voice echoes from all sides,

Reminding me about,

Limitations of my thoughts, space and time,

Making me realise,

I am confined by my conscious,

Awakened by the coward inside me,

As time passes by in front of my eyes,

I become a witness to my theft,

Flying away in time, 

Leaving my place in a thought for the future.

Looking for Myself

Looking into myself,

I found the young smiling at the old.