The Lying God!

Lies for reasons are still lies,

I thought I have become immune to the hurt of lies,

I was never so wrong,

It still shakes my confidence,

It still hurts like a knife in my heart,

Sitting besides the shattered God, 

The God, I created with my own hands,

With so much love and care,

I realized,

I was never so wrong,

I made my own God, 

For my own selfish reasons,

What is the use of telling that God now,

Who lied to me, again and again

For His pleasure and convenience,

Let the truth, rip us apart,

And let it bleed my soul, 

to a point,

Where I can confess to myself,

"I can't love You anymore",

Lies for a reason are still lies!

Life?

Looking at the mirror,

I asked, what is life?

My reflection answered,

Of course me!

I was asked, what is life?

I remained silenced in confusion and delusion, 

The stillness around me echoed, what am I?

I smiled and looked at the mirror,

I saw myself saying, of course you!

Bars of time

These days, 

I am awake with sleepy thoughts,

Thoughts about black, white and green

Now and then,

I see shadows dancing around me,

I remain confused,

Confined behind the bars of time,

If, I am still,

Dreaming or awake..

Hope around me

Looking around me,

I saw a fascinating thing,

Hope growing around me!

Without telling me, it grows on me,

Am I fascinated by it?

Conspiring

Finally,

I feel, I am happy,

Part of me thinks,

It has finally subdued the angel of sorrow,

Part of me is,

Smiling,

On the innocence of these moments,

Shying away from each other,

Both of me are,

Conspiring against each other,

Keeping me happy at both ends,

I feel like a winner...

Confused!

I heard that voice after such a long time,

A rush of emotions sinked into me,

Red, blue, black and gray,

Over powered me,

Feels like I am floating across an ocean,

Moving towards a fog of doubt,

Unthinkable and confused,

I want to hold,

The hand of my destiny,

Before I take a step into the unknown,

Waiting for the voice,

I converse with myself,

Pretending to be me,

As you,

Echoes of the heart are humming they name,

Giving a new voice in the chaos of thoughts,

A question arises,

Should I trust my mind or listen to the heart,

They have both been not true to me in the past,

Who should I trust now?

They both have their desires,

They both are selfish, 

What they want is to dominate,

Control and complete obedience,

Of my faith, trust and ambitions...

Am I thinking right?

Or my feelings are deceiving me?

Déjà VU

Moving in the fast lane,

I realized for a moment,

I was moving alone,

In a direction unknown,

To an undecided destination,

Moving away from now to then,

Passing by sorrows and happiness,

I saw a reflection of myself in the stillness of the journey,

Envious of my own self,

Jealous of my shadow,

I tried to ditch myself,

With a few thoughts of a desire,

In the lust to fulfil my ambitions,

I decided to leave behind,

Everything that is keeping me still and afloat,

Sinking in my desire,

I realized,

I am drowning alone.

Curse of Knowing

Laughing sounds of silence,
With smiling faces of emptiness,
Chasing me around all the time,
Whispering your name,
Again and again,
and
Again,
Asking me about you,
Haunting me with loneliness,
Every day and each night,
How can I not tell them?
What they don't know,
You are mine,
Only mine....

Tears

Looking at your face,

In the dim light of the moon,
With darkness spreading across the room,
My heart missed a beat today,
Speaking to myself,
I realized,
When I see your smile disappearing in time,
I try to convince, cheat and lie to myself,
"I am yours",
But I know the truth, and I can't share it with you,
"I love your tears too!"

Whisper

Dreams of today and dreams of tomorrow,
Came together to make me happy for a few smiles and a few sorrows,
If I close my eyes for a sight, I can look at your smile,
Feels like borrowed happiness,
Amazing to hear,
Pleasure to bear,
Just a small wish,
Just a whisper in my ear,
All that you hear is a lie,
I am yours,
I am here...