Confused!

I heard that voice after such a long time,

A rush of emotions sinked into me,

Red, blue, black and gray,

Over powered me,

Feels like I am floating across an ocean,

Moving towards a fog of doubt,

Unthinkable and confused,

I want to hold,

The hand of my destiny,

Before I take a step into the unknown,

Waiting for the voice,

I converse with myself,

Pretending to be me,

As you,

Echoes of the heart are humming they name,

Giving a new voice in the chaos of thoughts,

A question arises,

Should I trust my mind or listen to the heart,

They have both been not true to me in the past,

Who should I trust now?

They both have their desires,

They both are selfish, 

What they want is to dominate,

Control and complete obedience,

Of my faith, trust and ambitions...

Am I thinking right?

Or my feelings are deceiving me?