Confrontation

Sitting in front of my ego,

I am confronted with reality,

Everyday,

How simple it is, to see and smile?

The logic confronting the desire,

Crafting myself gradually,

Recreating in the image of my desire,

I hide behind the cloak of logic, 

Just to conceal my real motives,

Disguising myself with naked lies,

I stand tall with pride,

My ego yells at me,

I know it all, I know it all!

I smile,

Letting the desire to conspire,

It whispers quietly in my thoughts,

I want it all, I will have it all!

Blind Faith

Last night was full of pain,

People insearch of hope,

Unaware of how and what they want,

With their gods on their back,

Confronted with the hopeless,

Nothing was achieved,

A few lost hope, a few lost sight,

Some still had their gods on their side,

While all wait for Abraham to rise,

Until then the gods continue to be praised and worshiped,

With a blind faith,

For a reason unknown to them.

Shedding A Dry Tear

Look at my face,

My masquerade smile,

Listen to the echoes of my heart,

The sound of emptiness,

Shackle with my soul,

Look around and see,

The shallowness of my thoughts,

With some broken smiles,

A few unfulfilled desires and a few happy moments,

A graveyard of memories,

A garden of hopeless ambitions,

Stay here for a while,

You will see your shadow,

Emerging from an unfinished dream,

Come closer,

You might see,

The selfishness of my compassion,
Camouflaged in piety,

I am sitting alone,

Looking at you,

Shedding a dry tear.

Impostor

When the shadows start to haunt, 

And whispers become unbearable,

I hear the Impostor inside me,

Commanding me to listen, talk, cheat and lie to myself,

Deceiving from truth and reality,

Guilt, shame and mistrust become my virtue,

I convince myself, 

I am not helpless!

The future is there,

As a hope for tomorrow,

As I run away from darkness towards light,

I struggle to wake up from my reality,

Defying every god I have believed in,

Every moment I have cherished,

Shouting at myself in the loneliness around me,

Silence becomes, a luxury beyond me,
With a glow in my eyes and a smile on my face,

I wait for this moment to pass by,

Unnoticed and undetected.

The Lying God!

Lies for reasons are still lies,

I thought I have become immune to the hurt of lies,

I was never so wrong,

It still shakes my confidence,

It still hurts like a knife in my heart,

Sitting besides the shattered God, 

The God, I created with my own hands,

With so much love and care,

I realized,

I was never so wrong,

I made my own God, 

For my own selfish reasons,

What is the use of telling that God now,

Who lied to me, again and again

For His pleasure and convenience,

Let the truth, rip us apart,

And let it bleed my soul, 

to a point,

Where I can confess to myself,

"I can't love You anymore",

Lies for a reason are still lies!

Life?

Looking at the mirror,

I asked, what is life?

My reflection answered,

Of course me!

I was asked, what is life?

I remained silenced in confusion and delusion, 

The stillness around me echoed, what am I?

I smiled and looked at the mirror,

I saw myself saying, of course you!

Bars of time

These days, 

I am awake with sleepy thoughts,

Thoughts about black, white and green

Now and then,

I see shadows dancing around me,

I remain confused,

Confined behind the bars of time,

If, I am still,

Dreaming or awake..

Hope around me

Looking around me,

I saw a fascinating thing,

Hope growing around me!

Without telling me, it grows on me,

Am I fascinated by it?

Conspiring

Finally,

I feel, I am happy,

Part of me thinks,

It has finally subdued the angel of sorrow,

Part of me is,

Smiling,

On the innocence of these moments,

Shying away from each other,

Both of me are,

Conspiring against each other,

Keeping me happy at both ends,

I feel like a winner...

Confused!

I heard that voice after such a long time,

A rush of emotions sinked into me,

Red, blue, black and gray,

Over powered me,

Feels like I am floating across an ocean,

Moving towards a fog of doubt,

Unthinkable and confused,

I want to hold,

The hand of my destiny,

Before I take a step into the unknown,

Waiting for the voice,

I converse with myself,

Pretending to be me,

As you,

Echoes of the heart are humming they name,

Giving a new voice in the chaos of thoughts,

A question arises,

Should I trust my mind or listen to the heart,

They have both been not true to me in the past,

Who should I trust now?

They both have their desires,

They both are selfish, 

What they want is to dominate,

Control and complete obedience,

Of my faith, trust and ambitions...

Am I thinking right?

Or my feelings are deceiving me?